Friday, January 24, 2014

A Journey To Remember - Episode 9

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Last Chance !!

After the party, Sid took me to a nearby beach. It was already 2' o clock in the night. The waves and chirping birds created a perfect background score for us. All of a sudden, Sid starting shouting, "Rahul, my bro. You are a nice guy.Thanks for everything, especially helping me to hook up with Shreya. I love her a lot. I can't live without her. We both are very happy,together. You made it all possible.

My initial plans of sharing about 'me and Shreya' , with Sid were thrashed. I was wondering, how did i help him in this endeavor? Probably, i was indirectly responsible for my misery. 

Next few days, I wrote a very long mail expressing my feelings to Shreya but, it couldn't come out of my 'Drafts'. Waiting is painful, forgetting is painful, but not knowing which decision to take is the worst suffering! Do you know how a father feels when his dear daughter separates from him, after her marriage?  Do you how a mother feels when her son slips away from her, towards his wife? Do you know how it feels to say good bye to a close one? I was going through the same pain. It was hell !

Sid was a great guy. I was in no comparison to him in any aspect. But Shreya and Sid weren't meant to live life together.My senses told me that they are two different people to lead a happy life(Probably, they thought the other way round). I had a conviction that I was the right person for Shreya. Shreya would find a perfect soulmate in me. There are few things in life for which you don't have reasons to explain. You truly believe and aspire for those. Shreya was one such desire that I couldn't let her go.

Life was terrible! My best friend was dating my would-be-soulmate (You can call her already-a-soulmate). I couldn't share this misfortune with anyone but suffered all alone. I would complete my student life in 2 months and join corporate world. I had the regret of not telling things but expecting a lot from them. I was completely lost ! 

It was a saturday evening, i had my beard shaved and put on a blazer to attend the Farewell party hosted by our juniors. Time for yet another tragic evening to recall the memories and cry out loud to commemorate the separation. Shreya was wearing a red chiffon saree and looked gorgeous. We had a lot of exciting games, melodramatic-speeches and other fun events. At last, we gathered on the dance floor for the DJ party. I danced for few minutes and moved out of the auditorium to take a seat in the parking lot. All the memories were flashing in front of my eyes; the best and the worst ones belonged to Shreya(Sid included for the later part,mostly). I saw someone walking towards me. It was Shreya ! 

Shreya: Why did you leave the dance floor? You have changed a lot these days.
Me: Nothing like thatIt was kind of boring. So...
Shreya: Look who's bored of dancingYou fine? You look sad.
Me: Whatever! Stop asking questions and sit here peacefully,for a while.

Shreya was sitting next to me and the almighty had given me one last chance. We would be in different cities and leading a different lives altogether in few days, from now.  Life was all set for drastic changes. I thought, if it weren't to be now, it would never happen at all. 

Open skies, full moon, twinkling stars, dead silence, cool breeze, pale-yellow background from the nearest street-light, me and Shreya. 

This was the last chance , to live life without regrets. 

This was the last chance, to let her know how much she meant for me.
This was the last chance, to make her realize what true Love is.
This was the last chance, to tell her she was the best thing that happened to me. 
This was the last chance, to convince her that I wanted her in my life, at any cost.
This was the last chance, to make her live like a Princess.
This was the last chance, to steal her from everybody else.
This was the last chance, to say "I LOVE YOU".
This was the last Chance!!
This was the last Chance!!

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Friday, January 17, 2014

A Journey To Remember - Episode 8

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Life is a Bitch !
I parked my two-wheeler and started walking towards the fort. Shreya was right at the entrance waiting for me. She was wearing a cyan blue salwar kameez and looked stunning, as always. We greeted each other and entered the fort. Both of us didn't utter a single word. We walked, saw the paintings , looked at the visitors like we had been never been to this place. It was almost more than an hour that I couldn't stop myself, "Hey Shreya, you told me that you want to tell something?"

Shreya replied looking around, "Yup. I want to share something with you. But it is very crowded over here. I need privacy. Shall we go somewhere else? I mean, it's quite personal."

I suggested,"We'll take a walk in the road adjacent to this fort. There won't be anyone in that road"

The road was all empty except for the large green trees, cool breeze, Shreya, me and my anxiety.

"Come on, tell me", I was eagerly waiting for this moment.

" I don't know how i should share this with you, but.... Uffff.... Don't laugh at me after hearing this...I know, you won't...Shit! I feel scared..It's kind of awkward! Well, me and Sid are in a relationship now. I never wanted to get into this stuff but it all happened. It was all going great between me and Sid from past one year. He proposed me last Valentine's day and I hadn't said anything to him at that time. We spent some quality time together. I got to know him better during the last vacation. I accepted his proposal during that BR elections. I always wanted to share these things with you, but I wasn't able to. Sometimes you were very busy, at times i felt insecure to disclose this but lately I thought you should be the first person to know about this. You have been a very special person to me, I wanted to tell you about me and Sid. That's it. Now please don't ask me for a treat! And no comedy please!", She completed. 

I almost had an heart-attack. I couldn't breathe. I had a lump in my throat and was about to faint. I was lost. I was clueless. There was a sense of anger,disappointment, heart-break and my-life-is-gone feeling. 

I took few seconds and unwillingly said,"Congrats, Shreya ! Good choice. Sid is a very nice person.

I somehow managed to control my tears, but I couldn't. Thank God, I had my goggles! I couldn't hear a single word of what she was speaking. My world was broken into bits and pieces.

That night was a pretty long one. I was all alone standing on the terrace introspecting. I didn't know whom to blame; Was it Sid's mistake or Shreya's? Was it my procrastination? Am I so unlucky? Was it my fate? Didn't I deserve Shreya? Why didn't she realize my desires?  Probably, it wasn't anyone's mistake. Neither Sid nor Shreya was responsible for this. Sometimes, life is a bitch. It makes you go through the worst situations that you can never imagine.

I distanced myself from Shreya in the coming days. I tried to convince myself that I can live without her. It hurts more when you start pretending that it doesn't. I had to go through the worst phase of my life. Days were boring as well as frustrating without Shreya. Everyday Shreya was slipping away from my life even before she was mine. There was no Shreya in my life because she was busy with Sid. I wish she had sometime to ask me 'how are you?', but it didn't happen. I realized the hard reality of Life. Being an introvert, I didn't share this with anyone and this made it even worse for me. At times, I was in a confusion whether to propose her or not. Sometimes I googled, "How to break a relationship?", "Impressing a girl", "To get over a relationship?", "Moving on" and so on. 

Deep down inside, I knew eventually she would be mine.

Sid started his career as soon as he finished his graduation. But his job didn't affect their relationship. I didn't speak to Sid after he started writing codes for a Software company.  Actually, I had lost interest in cellphone,sms,trips and even weekend parties.The only relief factor was that I got placed in a decent company with a good package. Unfortunately, Shreya got selected in Sid's company. So my false hopes had completely vanished. Life is a bitch!

Sid invited me to celebrate Shreya's selection in his company and new year jointly. Though I declined it, Shreya forced me to join them. It was December 31st and the clocking was ticking 11PM. I rushed to the restaurant to find that I was late by an hour. Sid,Shreya and their friends (few of them were my friends as well) had sat in a round table. Shreya looked extremely beautiful that night. I couldn't tolerate her intimacy with Sid. My heart wished her to be mine badly,that moment. I knew, I was the best person to take care of her. I wanted to run away from this shitty world. I was feeling like a loser. I had no other reason to live life-without-Shreya. I was getting hyper looking at her. 

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Friday, January 3, 2014

A Journey To Remember - Episode 7

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What's Happening ??!!

Was I being possessive about Shreya? Was I doubting her? I was not sure!!

I rushed towards them and asked Siddharth, "Hi Sid, I thought you finished your exams yesterday."

"Yup. Actually Shreya had forgotten to bring her Hall-Ticket. She had called me to get it from the hostel. So I am here.",Sid clarified.

"Hey, how was the exam?",She asked me.

"It was good. Why weren't you picking my calls?", I was furious.

"OK guys. You carry on. I'll see you later.", Siddharth left the place before she answered me.

"It was in silent mode.", She exclaimed.

"Shreya, why didn't you call me? I could have brought the Hall-Ticket from your hostel.", I said in a loud tone.

"Calm down. I thought, you would be already tensed with all the exam-fear. Sid was free and he was here in 10 minutes.Anyways,Sid isn't an outsider.", She elaborated.

I  wasn't satisfied with the answer but managed to don a fake smile. Hundreds of thoughts were running in my mind.

"Come, we'll go to the cafeteria", I called her.

"Sure. I must say, Sid is really a nice guy. So funny, you know.........", She was blabbering all the way to cafeteria.

I was shocked. This was the first time she was speaking about Sid in front of me and I was totally unhappy. My world was just starting to fall apart. 

I thought it was the right time to tell her 'things'. You know what I mean? To express my (real) feelings towards her and say 'I Love You'.

"Shall we go for dinner,tonight?", I invited her.
"Nope, Rahul.I am leaving tonight by 7. I have reserved the tickets. I'm getting late. I'll call you later", She was in a hurry.

It was a 1 month vacation. As I stayed at my place, I couldn't use cellphones or internet. My village was devoid of all the urban needs - I mean telephones & internet. I had lost touch with all my friends, especially Shreya. I missed her, a lot. I was worried about what was happening between Sid and Shreya.

Something very disastrous happened during the holidays. Our family badly needed 5Lakhs to save our farms. As of now, I don't want to elaborate on that. I went to the nearest city and telephoned Sid for the help. You know what, he came all the way from Goa to give me 1.2Lakhs. Today it might be a very meager amount, but at that time, it was huge! He didn't even ask me a single thing till i repaid it after 3 months. Its not about the money but the amount of respect and value he showed towards our friendship. You know, I have a huge respect for Sid even today.

After the reopening of the college,
" Where the hell were you all these days? Not even a single call or atleast an sms", Shreya was shouting at me.
I explained her,"Hey there is no network at my place. I can't make calls or use internet."

On a bright Saturday morning, HOD came to the class and announced, "There will be an election for the post of BR (Branch Representative). Whoever is interested can register your names by the end of the day"

My friends had registered my name without my consent. I was happy as well as afraid.

I got a text from Shreya,

"Y do u want to contest for BR elections?
"My frens did it. Is der smthng wrong wit tat"
"I don't know. Ok..cya.GN"
"Gud nyt. take care"

Next few weeks made me realize 2 things. First thing, Shreya wasn't talking/texting to me as she wasn't happy about me contesting for the post of BR. Second thing, I had a severe opposition from a bunch of guys.

The whole campus was gossiping about 'Shreya and Sid'. I didn't pay much attention to it as I was busy with BR elections.

On the day of results, I was too nervous. But all the efforts paid off and I won the elections.
"So, somebody is a BR now. Lot of attention and power. Congrats BR", Shreya winked at me and we both shook hands.

"Thank you. Its been quite a sometime that we have spoke to each other properly. I'm throwing a party tonight, exclusively for you. You will be coming right? ", I invited her.

She said,"Yes. For sure."

But we didn't meet up that night. My opponents couldn't tolerate my victory and thrashed me inside the campus. I was injured badly and screaming for help. All I remember was being at a hospital with Shreya, Sid and other friends.
"What the hell is happening,guys ?", I shouted.
"Calm down. This is a hospital. We'll talk later", Sid consoled me.
To avoid Police and other dramas, my friends shifted me to Sid's home. 

"It's OK. Stay here for a week. You can't get proper food and other facilities in hostel.Sid will take care of you",Shreya said.

In spite of my disagreement I was at Sid's home.

Sid and his parents took great care of me. They were so nice to me. I felt like a part of their family. Shreya came to visit me every alternate day. Rather than the wounds, Sid and Shreya's long conversations on the balcony hurt me a lot. 

I came to hostel after 10 days. I had almost forgotten about telling 'things' to Shreya. BR elections had a great influence on my life. I started liking Sid more and more. I loved Shreya, a lot.

Next day in the college I asked Shreya, "Shall we go somewhere, tomorrow?"
"I don't feel like doing anything. You carry on",She declined. Shreya was in a state of confusion.
She was looking stressed. I knew, something was wrong with her.

Now, all I had to do in this world was to wait for the next weekend. 

But I got a call from Shreya the next day ,
"Rahul, shall we meet at the Angel Fort today evening? I want to tell you something. Something very important! "

"Sure. I'll catch you in the evening", I accepted the offer.

You be there by 5PM. By the way, Rahul, you make me feel good!! " She hung up the phone.

After some time, I took my friend's bike, plugged in my earphones and started towards the Fort.

"You make me feel good...Angel Fort...Something very important!!....."
Her words were looping in my mind, continuously. 

"Why would she call me and speak like this? omg!! Is she interested in me? Are we heading towards a relationship?", I was talking to myself.

Well,the moment had come!!  

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